Tag: who is ‘joan’

Campaign for real beauty

You’d think that someone with a supportive family, a good brain and happy outlook on life would be in the best position to ignore media pressure to be conventionally beautiful. I’m afraid not. Despite all reason and logic, I have, at my core, tied no small measure of my sense of self-worth to how my skin is behaving, what my hair looks like, if the clothes I used to wear still fit, and if I can wear the clothes that people think I should wear.

I found this interesting — Dove’s Evolution Film. Women are told all the time, “It’s all make-up and Photoshop.” It’s one thing to be told. It’s another to see it.

Thanks to sharnofshade for the link.

2006 in review

I ready Jon’s year in review and found it very interesting. You can’t always see the overall shape of a year without summarising it like that. So here is my 2006 review.

What amazes me most about 2006 is that on January 1, I had not the faintest clue that by the end of the year, I would have left a job I loved and moved to England to study at the University of Cambridge. A year is a long time.

Early in January, I put in my application to Cambridge. Then I tried not to think about it. There were good things about getting an offer and there were good things about not getting an offer. Although it doesn’t seem like it at the time, flip flopping between two equally attractive options is a good position to be in. It’s better than two bad options, right?

It has been a year of milestones. I went to my first cricket match, Australian Open match and Aussie Rules football game. I was made a job manager at work and was absorbed by big projects. My team won the company trivia night. I was in the middle of it all. It made me happy.

The long-awaited Commonwealth Games came, and I left for a holiday in England and France. I remember seeing Damjan at the bus station when he came to pick me up. A year is a long time but sometimes, six months is a short time. It was like we hadn’t been apart.

I also remember falling asleep in my dessert at the French restaurant. I thought I was immune to jet lag.

Just before I left Australia, I found out Cambridge had offered me a place. The offer meant nothing without a scholarship. I took the opportunity to visit Cambridge anyway and while I was there, I kept thinking, ‘Do I really want to be here? Is it the right time?’ I felt bad that I was uncertain.

I came home to a life-changing experience. Work offered to put me on a long-term job based in Shepparton in regional Victoria. I, a suburban girl who lived with her parents, would be living with a workmate hours from home.

Shepparton taught me about the problems drought and salinity cause Australian farmers. I learned what it was like to build an environmental management system for a big, complex organisation. I learned to work closely and successfully with another person. Jamie covered for my blindspots and I organised his thoughts. I learned to cook (better). I learned not to be scared of the gym. I learned to keep in touch with my family. I was practicing for Cambridge, wasn’t I? But I didn’t know I would need this until I got a scholarship in May.

I stopped dancing hiphop. I didn’t miss it. I do now. My latin dancing improved, though. Vera and I had more than half a year of private lessons with Irina. I am no longer ashamed of my Cha Cha technique.

I worked and studied like a demon in the lead up to September. Somehow, I finished my graduate certificate in conflict resolution before I left.

Damjan came back for his summer break and we flew to England together. It was surreal, that moment I said goodbye to mum and dad. I was homesick and lonely, that first night in the Cambridge hostel. Dinner was a banana (luxury!) and a tub of yogurt.

The next day, though, I instantly had 100 friends. I went on camp with the people who had the same scholarship as me. People from around the world converged on the Peak District with the express purpose of being interesting and friendly. It was kind of overwhelming. But I was thankful for it, oh so thankful, when, in the following hectic days of setting up my life in Cambridge, I kept running into people I knew. I already belonged.

I met my new family. There are five of us in this college house: Di, Alex, Dino, Intan and me. Most of the time, the kitchen sink is pretty clear of any washing. They also looked after me when my computer crashed. I’d say this is a damn fine household.

I met 35 engineers interested in sustainable development. Some want to continue their work with developing nations. Others will work at changing industry from the inside. I’m not sure what I want to do yet. It might be clearer on Monday. I will be talking to a visiting lecturer who has challenged some of my basic assumptions about the world.

From my point in the world, the problem of sustainability is getting simpler and the solutions are getting harder.

In July last year, I wrote about six revelations I had about myself. Just now, I went back to my list. Those revelations have already been absorbed into my fundamental view of myself. It seems strange that I had lived without them.

Finally, just for fun, let’s see where I am on the timeline I wrote more than two years ago.

Ha. Two years is a long time.

A boundary on my social circle

I’ve decided to rationalise my social circles. There are many ways to meet people as a new student at Cambridge. A few days ago, I decided to concentrate on my interactions with the people from my house, my course and my scholarship group.

The casualties of the cull include people from the dance club, Australian and New Zealand Society, Commonwealth society and my college.

To my friends back in Australia, I’m sorry for the sparseness of my communication. You have not been culled. Hopefully, when my eBay-bought laptop arrives next week, I will return to my chatty self.

Censusless

I was really looking forward to filling in a form for the five-yearly Australian census. You have no idea how much I love forms.

I was in Shepparton on August 8. Jamie, Erin and I were going to have a census party. We were a household.

The form never showed up in our letterbox. It wasn’t even under the doormat. Perhaps it was because we live in a serviced apartment. Yet, when our hosts dropped by for a chat the next day, they told us that guests staying in the other apartments were given forms.

I was crushed.

I particpated in a telephone survey this morning but even that couldn’t ameliorate the pain of losing my census.

I’m getting better at it

For my homework, I had to complete a ‘personal conflict style inventory’. You can do yours as well by clicking Adult Personal Conflict Style Inventory.

My preferred styles of managing conflict are:

 

Calm – Response when issues/conflicts first arise.

Storm – Response after the issues/conflicts have been unresolved and have grown in intensity.

1.

Collaborating

Accommodating

2.

Avoiding

Avoiding

3.

Accommodating

Compromising

4.

Comprimising

Collaborating or Forcing

My homework sheet asked, How accurate a description do you think this is for you?

I think the results are very accurate. I feel uncomfortable when people argue and will usually avoid conflicts. I feel very anxious whenever I know I have to have a difficult conversation with someone. In fact, I found conflict so upsetting, that I enrolled in this conflict resolution program to learn how to deal with it.

The limits of self-reflection

I’m in Melbourne most of this week and bits of next week. I’m doing my final subject in my conflict resolution studies. This is the subject I agonised over a few weeks ago, if you remember.

Guess what?

I’ve learned a lot about myself in the past two months.

Two months ago, I thought I had a pretty good idea of who I was, the things that made me Joan. Why did I think this? Because I do so much self-reflection.

But there’s a limit to how much you can learn through self-reflection. The things I’ve learned recently are things that other people have had to tell me about me.

Has that ever happened to you? People say, “You know, you’re really X, Y, Z.”

And you think, “…”

And then, “…”

And then, “Yeah. I guess so. Yeah! Wow! Really? You mean, not everyone’s like that?” I needed other people, people who look like me on the outside but are very different on the inside, to identify the intrinsically-Joan characteristics that I never thought to articulate.

I can count six revelations that other people have thrust upon me in the past two months. Six revelations. I think you’re lucky if you get one revelation a year.

It’s kind of like thinking you’ve mapped out the whole world and then discovering new continents. I understood the reality that even when your world is mapped out, you should expect the landmasses to shift in the future. But this is different, this bit about discovering more to map in the world as it stands today.

Imagine what I’ll learn when I have to live in another country for a year!

I’m not going to talk about what I’ve learned because it’s not meaningful or interesting to anyone but me. I just thought I should warn you, if you don’t know it yet, that even if you are the most self-aware of people, there are probably still things you can learn about yourself — especially if you’re still young.

Trivia champions

We won! We won! We won the company’s yearly trivia competition. There were ten teams of ten. We were Feng Shui Consulting, and the karma was good. It was a team effort — Jamie was Lord of Geography, Peter dragged music facts from the recesses of his audio memory, Simone was ’80s Queen, Garrick nailed the air guitar, Rob led the charge on sport… I contributed the following small facts.


Question:Who are the five permanent members of the U.N. Security Council?
Answer: USA, UK, Russia, China and France

I knew this because the same question recently showed up in the Herald Sun Quiz Master so I knew that Japan wasn’t one of the permanent members. My fellow team mates were perplexed by it as I had been. “How did France get on it?” they asked. “Probably because it keeps getting invaded by other countries,” was the answer.


Question: How many unique words does Dr. Seuss use in ‘Green Eggs and Ham?’
Answer: 49

I said 50 but they accepted it. According to Wikipedia, I was right.


Question: What is the largest freshwater body of water in the world?
Answer
:
Lake Superior

Tara, a Candian, said, “It’s not fresh! It’s contaminated!” There was some controversy about if ‘largest’ was by surface area or by volume. Jamie argued the answer could have been Lake Baikal, which is the deepest and largest freshwater lake by volume.


Question: Is a zebra white with black stripes or black with white stripes?
Answer: White with black stripes

This is one of the Odd Spots that features on Libra feminine hygiene products.


Question: Name Santa’s eight reindeer.
Answer: Dasher, Dancer, Prancer, Vixen, Comet, Cupid, Donner, Blitzen

As a kid, I memorised The Night Before Christmas. It was a song on my favourite and only Christmas carol CD. There was more controversy — people protested that Rudolph, an obvious answer, had not been included. In his confusion, our MC Jeremy allowed Ruldolph to be included but then overturned his decision after it was revealed that Rudolph the Red Nose Reindeer was not one of the original eight reindeer, but rather a modern addition to Santa’s fleet.


Question: What decade was the Eiffel Tower constructed?
Answer: The 1880s

Haha… I got this one because when I was at the Eiffel Tower only three months ago, I tried to read every one of the 100 interpretive signs that were put up in 1988 to celebrate the centenary of the Eiffel Tower.


Question: Which was the first national park to be established in the world?
Answer: Yellowstone National Park

I’ve been to the other Y Park (Yosemite). Yellowstone would probably be the place I want to visit the most in the world.


Question: What does ‘etemology’ mean?
Answer: Study of word origins.

When Jeremy asked this one, a couple of us immediately said, “Study of insects.” Clair scribbled it down but then I had a thought. “Hey, wait. Did he say ‘entemology’ or ‘etemology’?” When people shrugged, I called out, “Hey, Jeremy! ‘Ent’ or ‘et’? Was it entemology or etemology?” He spelled it out. Ah ha! I turned to Clair. “Ooh, I know this one! It’s words, the origins of words. I have etemological discussions with friends.”


Question: In what country would you find the Mojave Desert?
Answer: USA (California).

My family drove across the Mojave Desert in 2004. It’s the flattest place I have ever seen. I saw tumbleweed roll across the highway, just like in the cartoons.

I remember one time, Jason was driving and we had all fallen asleep. I was the first to wake up and I glaced at the speedo. I read 110 mph. “Jason!” I gasped, as a quick mental calcuation came up with almost 180 km/h. He gave me a guilty, sheepish, disappointed look and eased back on the accelerator.


The MC also played the opening bars of a number of songs. I named Pump It by the Black Eyed Peas.

The team that came last was made up of the guys from IT support. I suspect they didn’t do so well because there were so many sports questions and no technology ones. I would have liked some science questions but the trivia master focused on sports, geography, pop culture and music.

I’m not complaining, though. We each ended up with a $25 voucher from JB Hifi, hurrah!

First time gym goer

I joined the gym and so far have done two sessions of weight training.

It seems like my legs are stronger than my arms (relative to other people). I have little trouble stacking on the weights for exercises that require me to push or lift with my legs. But the best I can do with my arms is about 20 pounds. Heck, when I use my shoulders, I use zero weights!

I’ve been sore for the past two days. It’s not so bad now.

As a first time gym-goer, this is what I have found. I felt intimidated by all these gym regulars (mostly men) walking around but once someone explained to me how to use the machines, I concentrated on what I was doing rather than what other people were doing. Then I kind of noticed all the bad gym technique (lack of control of the weights) from some of the gym regulars and I felt better.

I really like carrying around my written program of exercises and ticking off the weights, reps and sets as I do them. I’ve always liked filling in boxes and ticking things off.

Doing strength training feels different to a cardio workout, like running or aerobics. You don’t feel puffed out at the end, as you would for cardio work. Instead, you feel weak. After my first session, my arms felt weak and strangely springy and tight. I didn’t know what they were doing, which made lifting pots and pans after coming home to cook more hazardous than usual!

Giant block of city ignorance

For my work in Shepparton, I speak to many farmers and country people. I’ve lived in cities and suburbs my whole life. This is something I have to confess to people so that I can explain my ignorance of basic agriculture, geography of regional Victoria, even Australian slang.

Jamie has been my first line of defence in this new environment. He grew up on a farm in south-western Victoria. Often, I let him do the banter and questioning while I sit back and absorb as much information as I can without revealing my city girl cluelessness.

I am grateful that I have had this opportunity to learn more about rural life. I don’t want to be an ignorant urbanite spouting off about water being wasted through irrigation, over-fertilising of crops or vegetation clearing.

Jamie tells me stories about about growing up on a farm.

“The farm back home isn’t big. We grow lavendar, also some beef cattle. Sometimes when a cow has two calves, she’ll pick one to look after and abandon the other. The abandoned one doesn’t last long. It’s just the natural way of things.

Sometimes, though, when dad felt like it, he said to me and my brother, “Josh, Jamie, if you want, you can look after the calf.”

Josh and I would come back after school every day to feed it. It was really cute, looking up at us with its big cow eyes. We were its ‘mum’. It would come towards me and nuzzle my leg. Every time, it would be looking for my udder.

I would hold my hand like this and it would suck my fingers. You have to be really careful, though. You have to have your hand palm upwards. Cows have strong mouths. If you held you hand like this, with the fingers facing down, the calf would snap your fingers backwards when it sucked.”

Goodness. With my newly acquired knowledge, I felt my giant block of city ignorance chip away just that little bit more.